Archaeology for the Masses

Thursday, April 20, 2006

things i feel like today

death
dying
hell
affliction
agony
anguish
grave
misery
torment
wretchedness
annihilation
casualty
darkness
demise
destruction
expiration
fatality
mortality
necrosis
obliteration
oblivion
ruin
ruination
termination
tomb
ailing
broken down
confined
debilitated
declining
defective
down
impaired
imperfect
incurable
infected
infirm
invalid
lousy
rotten
suffering
weak

so many stations

vh1-I love the 80s, about Lisa Loeb
E-Number 1 Single, Lisa Loeb is helped by Adam Goldberg
Comedy Central-Hebrew Hammer, staring Adam Goldberg
6:10pm today
when TV swallowed itself whole

grrr

I'm getting tired of this...stasis
I'm tired of not doing exactly what i want when i want
I feel old
very old
because everyone around me acts so old
what's the point of being young, white and middle class anyway
it's so overrated
because everyone is always trying so hard to get somewhere
I'm trying to enjoy here, but no one else is enjoying it with me
it's like when i was in London
every thing in me is dying to go to the wax museum
but if no one goes with me
what's the point?
so i didn't go
I do like to be alone most of the time
but it gets boring
quick
too quick

I've been having good dreams recently
I look forward to the coma
I don't think I've felt this lonely in a long time
but I know spring break didn't help

It's trite, I know
and everyone in the whole wide world feels this way
but it would be nice if someone got it
if someone, somewhere
were sitting there, like I am
miserable, and crying, and bored
bored in the deepest depths of their soul

someone hand me a reason
seriously
some challenge me for a change
shake up my world
pique my interest

thank god for eric right now
he doesn't know it yet
but he made my night

also, there was a spider
but i don't know where it went